The Ink Chapel

I used to be terrified of being misunderstood.

Now?
Oh babe. Pull up a chair. Let me make some tea. ☕💀

Because somewhere along the line, after enough rumors, enough finger pointing, enough “well I heard…” from people whose personalities are basically wet cardboard, something in me just… snapped loose.

And honestly?
It was kind of freeing.

There’s something deeply hilarious about realizing people will create a version of you in their heads no matter what you do.

Be quiet?
You’re rude.

Talk too much?
You’re attention-seeking.

Too emotional?
Crazy.

Too calm?
Cold-hearted.

Post your kids?
Manipulative.

Don’t post your kids?
Clearly you don’t care.

Write poetry?
Dramatic.

Stay silent?
Suspicious.

At some point I realized I could literally cure a man’s blindness in the Walmart parking lot and somebody from high school would still be like:
“Yeah but she thinks she’s better than everyone.” 😭

People do not want human beings.
They want characters.
Easy little cardboard cutouts they can understand in thirty seconds or less because depth scares the absolute shit out of them.

And unfortunately for them, I am not a Hallmark movie woman.
I’m more like a deleted scene from a psychological drama with folk music in the background and a raccoon digging through emotional debris behind the dumpster. 🦝

The funniest part is when people think ruining your reputation destroys you forever.

No no no.

Sometimes it removes the pressure to perform.

Because once people already believe the worst?
You stop tap dancing for approval.

You stop shrinking yourself to look “safe.”
You stop overexplaining your trauma to people committed to misunderstanding you anyway.
You stop begging to be seen correctly by people who enjoy seeing you distorted.

And THAT is where freedom starts.

I spent years terrified of being “too much.”
Too emotional.
Too intense.
Too honest.
Too weird.
Too autistic.
Too sensitive.
Too sarcastic.
Too loud about pain people wanted packaged neatly and quietly.

Now?
If I cry in a Barnes & Noble parking lot listening to sad indie music while eating trail mix like a depressed woodland creature, then that is between me and God. 😌

People already made me the villain in stories I barely survived.
So I might as well at least become an entertaining one.

And let me tell you something truly magical:

Once your image is cracked, you realize how exhausting image maintenance actually was.

I no longer need every stranger to think I’m graceful.
Some days I’m petty.
Some days I’m grieving.
Some days I’m healing.
Some days I’m writing poetry at 3 AM while my feverish uterus tries to recreate a Victorian medical mystery.

That’s life.

And honestly?
The people who genuinely love you don’t require perfection anyway.

They just require truth.

Meanwhile the people dedicated to misunderstanding you would still hate you if you arrived at their front door glowing like an angel and handing out cash.

“Wow. Manipulative.” 👁️👄👁️

There is a strange peace in realizing your reputation and your actual soul are not always the same thing.

Some people know your name and still do not know you.
Some people know one chapter and think they read the whole damn book.

Meanwhile you’re carrying worlds inside you:
grief,
love,
motherhood,
survival,
rage,
humor,
hope,
faith,
and enough emotional lore to financially support several therapists.

But sure, Jackie from 2003 has opinions.
Devastating. Truly. 💀

I think adulthood eventually teaches you this:

You cannot fully control the story people tell about you.

So you might as well build a life that feels honest to live in.

Wear the weird clothes.
Write the sad poems.
Love loudly.
Block people without writing a thesis statement first.
Laugh too hard.
Cry ugly.
Be complicated.

Because once the illusion of being universally liked dies?

You can finally fucking breathe.

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